I’m currently really frustrated with myself. (also hi, long time no read). I didn’t do anything that horrific or life threatening. I forgot a deadline.
This never happens to me. Despite some other flaws, I’m very organized. So much so, that it’s been used against me as an insult (it wasn’t an effective one). Anyways, senioritis and overwhelm is starting to sink in and I feel like it’s important to address.
The deadline I missed was for scholarship money. Not just a failed high school test that won’t matter a year from now. Money I could use. I feel like I haven’t just let myself down but my ever so generous parents too.
I don’t want this to be a melodramatic self-pitying post, but I don’t have a ton else to say. I guess what I want to say is that it’s normal, and to be expected even, that as humans we’re going to slip up. The stress of going off to college is normal. I know how major everything college related feels. Like you’re future depends on it. Things happen. Life gets hectic. And to be honest with you, the only truth there is in “life settles down” is that it gets harder, but we learn to adapt to it better.
All you can do is try your best- not to sound cliche or anything.
I’m off to scour the internet for other scholarships and take a few deep breaths. It’s all I can do at this point, but at least it’s something.